Thanks For Showing Your True Colors

I wanted to write today about this great love that is happening, but in true fashion the devil wants to make my life his playground. I don't want to give this any energy, but I'm pissed off. I'm pissed off because I just realized that the friend I thought I had isn't my friend at all. People say that you know a person by their actions. I finally believe that. I finally see that me being a friend doesn't mean a thing. I can be your friend. I can be your late night counselor. I can be your ace boon coon. I can be your prayer warrior. I can be all of that and it doesn't mean anything really to you. The reality of that is making me feel like throwing in the towel with everyone and with every thing....but even now I as I am writing I am encouraged. I am encouraged because I know that you, your behavior is an anomaly. I know that people genuinely care about me and that this is just another thing to make me stronger. I know that all of the time and love that I invested in our friendship will be returned to me. I know it and while that will be what eventually makes all the difference right now I'm just hurt.