Should I Go?

While driving up I10 today, I had an opportunity to listen to some of my favorite songs. Usually, that is a good thing. Today it had an effect. I'm still trying to process if it was a good one. One of the lines that stood out was on a Brandy song "should I go? Should I stay? I'm in control either way." Brandy was singing about her decision to rejoin the music industry. I was thinking along far more personal lines. She and I rode out to that song. She and I seem to always arrive at the same place. She's embarking on a tour in support of her new album. I'm less than a day away from the interview that opens the door to a whole new life. I want to be able to embrace all of what this change brings. I have moments when I think about it and I am fearless. I feel like David when he faced Goliath. There's a giant in front of me, but by God it has to fall down. I love those moments. I feel God moving in me. There are also those moments when I feel like the children of Israel. I see the promise, but I hear the negative report. In these moments I am thankful for hindsight. They didn't know it, but because of their story I am assured that even in those moments God is still with me. He wants me to go into the promised land. He wants to honor the word that He gave me. It is amazing to me the things that remind me that God is with me. This morning God used Brandy....."should I go? Should I stay? I'm in control either way." Thank God for that.