The Master Builder

"Who is the master builder?" I've sat with what I might say about being under construction for a few weeks now. The popular saying "God is not through with me yet" has toyed with my mind on and off for the duration of this time. "God is not through with me...I have to get my anger under control. God is not through with me....I need to stop cursing. God is not through with me...I have to stop drinking. God is not through with me....I have to find a way to leave this married man alone." Everyone one of these statements sounds like a good plan. I need to stop being angry. I need to stop cursing. I need to stop drinking. I need to leave this married man alone. But I have to challenge these statements with a question. Who's the master builder is it me or is it God? Who is the master builder? The bible says in Psalm 127, Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it.... Hmmm... Except the Lord build the house... Does that mean that I am not the one who needs to do this? Am I not the one to control my temper, my mouth, my thirst, my lust? Except the Lord build a house...... So these habits I've developed of apologizing when I'm not sorry, thinking the curse word instead of verbalizing it, drinking wine coolers instead of vodka, sleeping with my boyfriend instead of my married man....you mean to tell me changing my habits doesn't end this? I thought that if I said "God forgive me I'm working on it", I would be ok. I thought if I said "Lord you know that this sounds good, tastes good, feels good, Is good", that I wouldn't have to worry. I acknowledged God didn't I? I gave Him His props. So what I didn't allow Him to change my heart and word my mouth. So what I didn't allow Him to quench my thirst. So what I didn't allow Him to be my lover. I acknowledged Him. Doesn't the bible say in all thy ways acknowledge Him? I know that I heard that somewhere. What is the problem exactly? I knew these things were wrong so I fixed them. I took control. I got it together. I'm living a better life. People tell me so all the time. Where's my bible? Here it is.... Let me see, where's that verse? It has to be here somewhere.... Got it. Proverbs 3:6.... Oh no, that's not what I've been doing. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. So God is the master builder? Wow! I missed that. I hope you ate well today. C. Brooks for Sunday Morning Breakfast 11/30/2012